Guys & Emotion

Today I was at school and I couldn't help but think back to my disgusting, emo, depressing and uncomforting days where I used to cry myself to sleep and I couldn't help thinking if the right guy will come into my life.. Guys are so.. UGH. Well I thought about this.. Will guys ever develop emotion? Like in any point of their life, will they understand, or should I just get the thought of 'single for the rest of my life' into my mind? I don't get this.. But I completely do understand that I will seriously give dating a big break.. As in AGE break. Maybe I'm just not ready, or I'm not good enough for certain guys. Maybe I just need a certain type of guy.. I don't know. Lets leave it that way.. And one more thing for the girls that are viewing this website.

Don't cry over a guy.. It's not worth it and it will NEVER be worth it.. Honestly, If he really did love you, he wouldn't do shit to you in the first place. Don't give him second chances. You never know if he has changed or not. The problem with most guys today is, they don't understand the concept of our feelings, they just don't know it feels to be treated like shit.. They don't know what we have been through/are going through. If they did, then just MAYBE they wouldn't be jackasses. BUT, I doubt it cause my last boyfriend was STILL a jackass after the appology (I'm not saying any names). And what was really really sad was, he was PROUD of it. He called HIMSELF an asshole.. It really got on my nerves but I didn't tell him anything. He freaking accepts himself as an asshole... That is what you call a clueless, immature teenager.

You don't see me going around calling myself a slut do you?? 'Hahahaaa.. Yeah I am such a slut. I can't believe I gave that guy a blow job. I am such a slut! haha!' No. It's just so unbelieveable. And he texted me, (my ex.. again, not saying any names. don't want to screw up his precious reputation, do we?) and he said: Hey, look I know your mad but dontknow why. I know your hurt.... but don't see why. I understand your pain...but don't think you deserve it. I don't know why you were mad yesterday. And I don't see why you would tell other people crap about me. I wanna talk. When you get the chance. Please call or text me.

Okay that was the SADDEST TEXT I HAVE EVER READ. So he can text me, but he can't call me? What the hell? Great going! That was so smart! It's okay. I mean I'm not gonna talk to him anyway. If he cared he would've done better then just that text. Not even ONE call. Pathetic. Soooo pathetic.