Colored Contacts

I am officially getting colored contacts! YAY! I am like so happy! Well I'm not getting them untill my mom confirms it, which is an 85% chance! As long as I keep up my grades and do nothing bad, I will get colored contacts (the true saphire ones or the light purple/violet ones). YAYAYYAAY! Okay. I don't get why the other 20% chance came true. My mom isn't letting me get colored contacts. I don't see why she wouldn't let me buy them... I mean- It's almost the same price as regular contacts, except for a couple a' bucks more- but honestly, it's worth getting something better then the regular you know.. There is really nothing wrong with colored contacts- they make you look a little bit better but that's probably it. Wait.. Is there something wrong with looking good?
If there was, I didn't know. Tell me, really- was there something wrong with looking good? Cause the way my mom interprets her actions gives me a little feeling that looking pretty in this century leads to RAPE. Ughhhhh. I just FREAKING HATE IT WHEN SHE DOES THAT. She makes me happy, I get my hopes up, and then she ruins it completely.. Like by the end I feel terrible when she comes up to my face and says no to something I really want..
It's not like I waste money either, I like preserve my clothes.. Especially my jeans. Use em' for atleast three years, and when they get short, I cut them into bermudas to wear in the summer and it looks pretty good. Then there are those rare electronics she pays for.. The only electronic that she payed for was my camera. Everything else, my iPod, my mp3 players, and all that crap I payed for. I dislike my mom paying for anything expencive cause then she uses it against me like my dad does all of the time.
For example: 'Hey dad I really need to buy some shoes, cause these ones are tearing and like.. You know.. It looks sort of bad..' and then he says: 'I bought you a phone, what more do you want? You weren't supposed to buy anything else for a year.' Wow dad. You made a wonderful point there! Then of corse, I tell him that if I don't these shoes soon.. I will fail (that wasn't a joke or a bribe, I litterally would fail). So he FINALLY agrees, but then eventually forgets.
On the other hand, if you look at the spoiled and exact opposite of me- my brother you would trully want to live his freaking life. Damn he has it easy. Here's how his room looks.. You walk in and the first thing you see is a: PSP, PS2, PS3, Wii, XBox360, iPod touch (regular), iPod touch (third generation), and to top that shit load of electronics off, a Plazma. I don't see why this happened though.. I mean, like yesterday my brother asked for a skin/case thing for one of his iPod touches.. And the world stops.. Like I freaking skipped ginan class to go to the mall with him to face him and his whiney self to get his freaking iPod SKIN/CASE THING!
I asked my mom to let me spend freaking four dollars on something I liked and she freaking bitched at me for no good reason (oh- and an iPod skin/case thing is a little more than ten bucks)! You see, if this happenes one or two times, it's not really a problem.. But when this happenes whenever you ask for something and you don't really get anything no matter WHAT but your sibling can ask for something oh-so-expencive and get it within minutes, it becomes a PROBLEM. I asked to get my laptop fixed, because my mom freaking knows that I use it for writing esays and my novel but she doesn't BOTHER taking THAT in for repair- but she still wants me to get good grades and study and practice writing! HA. Nice try!
I would fail on purpose but I really can't afford to do that these last two semesters, like I won't get into that school (GSMST) that I wanned to get into. But I do recall this one time that I asked why she wouldn't buy me anything and she would buy my brother everything and yes, she responded with 'It's not like that. You're just taking it in the wrong way.' But later I tried getting more out of her and she said that we were running out of money. PLEASE don't BS me like that. It doesn't work.
Because people who run out of money don't go buy a new game system and a console and a nunchuck and a new iPhone, iPod, and designer wear. They just DON'T. Speaking of designer wear- shoes, as I was saying, I need shoes. Whenever I get shoes, I take special special care of them and save them. My brother gets freaking designer shoes for over a 100 bucks every three months. What's that? Oh right, I can't spend that much on shoes. I absolutely cannot buy a pair of everlasting sneakers for 30 bucks.
Okay, that's enough. Calm down.