GSMST

 So I decided to go for GSMST.. So I gave my mom the forms and she happily signed them and she and I are PRAYING that I get in.. Like no joke, if I get into this school I will feel like theluckiest girl in the world.. But I have one big problem.. My ex goes to that school and I don't think the whole 'moving on' scheme is going to work if I see him.  I mean just seeing him makes me cry.. I can't even smile in front of him, I have to force it:'(..

 It gets difficult when you have to make a run to the restroom to save your SANITY. Yeah, I tried getting over him, but yet, I miss him a lot.. And it hurts not to see him so it's sorta weird.. But then again, the last time I saw him (an hour or so after seeing his face) I was sitting in class and I starting breathing heavily and my eyes started welling and I had a strange gut feeling in my stomach.. I guess I should try a little harder to get over him.. I mean I did block him everywhere.. But after a while I just couldn't take it, you know what I mean? Well, back to the school topic. I'm signing up for this school because it's good for me, and it can prepare me for the worst and what not. All done:]